I’m not doing resolutions this year. Instead, I’m doing the Mission 101 goal list. I’ve added extras into mine (and will continue to do so throughout the next three years) because I’m not stopping at 101 goals nor at 1001 days. I’m continuing for three years instead of the 2.75, taking me to the end of 2011.
I’m keeping my list (mostly) private, because while it’s important to have support, I’m trying to limit most of the support to people who actually know me. I’ve got it posted in a small, locked LiveJournal community of people who all mostly know each other, and I’ll post it in a VERY tightly filtered locked post on my own LJ (and I probably won’t accept “applications” for people who want to see it; it’ll be who I choose, because it’s that personal to me), but mostly, this is to keep me accountable to myself. I’ll update the list throughout the next three years (and in fact, I just remembered something else that needs to go on there), as well as updating the filter and the community.
I started on one of my goals today: potty train Belle. Since she gained the ability to go down the stairs, her favorite place to poop is right inside the front door on the doormat (which, ironically, says, “Wipe Your Paws”). I think it’s because she’s pissed off that we leave her during the day, even though Ben’s home with her. So I took her for a walk today, and we stayed out until she pooped. Before today, when we’d go on walks, she’d hold it until we got home and then do her bid’ness in the house, causing OH SO MUCH frustration. It’d be easier if we lived in a better neighborhood or in a house with a fenced yard to just let her out to go, but we don’t, so we just need to deal with her with much patience. Today, though, she pooped outside, and she was resoundingly rewarded for it with much love and good treats.
Another goal for me is to mend some friendships that I’ve neglected, flat-out ignored or pushed to the back burner for various reasons. That’s unacceptable to me, and it bothers me. It’s no secret that I’m kind of a bitch; whereas being the boss and being bossy are pretty different, being a bitch and being bitchy has a fine, fine line. I’ve been working on it a lot in the last few years with the help of some friends to help keep me accountable, but I’ve got a long way to go, and the only person who can really keep me accountable is me, and I need to learn how to do that better. I’m trying to* letting down the walls more, I’m trying to* learning to laugh at myself more and not take myself so freakin’ seriously. It’s a constant process, and I can’t expect everyone to immediately treat me differently just because I say I’m changing; I have to prove to myself and to everyone around me that I am, in fact, changing.
As expected, there are a lot of craft-related goals; thirty-nine of them alone are knitting projects, mixed in with five quilting projects, five beading projects, learning two knitting techniques (dyeing and entrelac) and designing another pattern. There are a nineteen spiritual goals. I’m going to create six different cordials (and if they’re successful, yes, I’ll share recipes, because damn, they should be tasty), create a cookbook with a friend and lose 40 pounds. There’s gaming, there’s baking, there’s education and blogging and fire spinning. I’ve got a lot ahead of me, and I’m looking very forward to the next three years.
2009 is off to a great start, and I will keep that momentum going. Who’s with me?
* “Do or do not; there is no try.” — Yoda